MY NEW RESOLUTIONS

We all were like  crazy  gang in school , after school every one went in different directions and no one are in same place but we talk to each other  in festivals and in holidays its quit strange because all of them changed , they changed a lot.  Once few were our crazy things but now for them they became idiotic   things,i don't know why all of them became mechanical in life .
These days many of them think that i have to think like a grownup. Well i donno but i guess they might be true ...
so , these are my new resolutions from this day , i mean not exactly this day but likely this next month.

I will not see shin chan on t.v .

(oh please don't look at me like that shin chan i know you are angry on me)

I will not read novels or comic books .

I will go near beaches (im scared of seas and fate i'm bought up in coastal area  with beautiful sea)

                                                            (uff seas are really scary )
From today i wont get scared of heights
I'll remember things...
I will eat potatoes( :( )

I won't play games in facebook.
I will not cry or get angry for silly things.
and etc etc
well we all make resolutions does that means do we have to follow them???
I mean I'm fine like this do i have to follow resolutions??? hehe i don't know .....
Let the future decide lol....

MY UNLIMITED DREAMS......

For childhood i dreamed a lot , i dreamed about  wonders , miracles, shortcuts for happiness, about a different world , world in the sense the world of my dreams where my aspirations are followed ...

I belong to a native  where female child are been killed when they are born or married when they are under aged but my luck i was bought up in cities like a normal child . My family people encouraged a lot for female education to their 3rd generation (us) . My mother was married at the age of 16 even she was the only daughter , all my aunts(dad's sis) where married between 15- 18years pretty misfortune. but there was lot encouragement for we people(all girls) in family to study but all these years i only saw my elder cousins quitting studies and marrying some rich man who is 10 or 11 years elder to them.. One of my elder  who recently quit her polytechnic studies in second year saying that she is not interested in studies .. my uncle pleaded her like anything but no use she don't wanna study or do anything else ....

But i'm unlike them i always dreamed high . I want to study very high . i want to be second person to get PhD in my family (first one is my dad) ..  But  all i wanted to do in my future is  establishing schools in rural areas and areas like my native village .. I just wanna teach primary kids .. I know with my degree i can earn lot of money i don't want to. i'll earn lot of money but can i ensure my happiness after that??? no i can't...

I never keep top secrets from my parents  so i told them about my dreams and... my dad gave a weirdo smile  and my mom was like shocked  she said " what all you wanted to wanna be is teacher  with big degree and you want to do some unnecessary things?? " .. they thought studying long made me so.. From then few bad days my library card was taken  a strict warning that i should not read novels and autobiographies and all started giving me lectures lolzz . It is not a unusual dream but place i belonged to for them it is quite unusual  hehe... After  2years and 3months i started buying books and reading books again :D.... 

I'm from south of Indian and i belong to a place where people (women) hardly know about blogs and i write blogs(i like writing ) even my blogs are bad no doubt it is a big achievement of me... 

All these years i never stopped dreaming, dreaming about my own world which i want to establish and i know i will do it and i can do it.....

My friends the  crazy idiotic people who are always around me are my main encouragement ..

• so many hands in one chips packet...
• so many idiots in one bench..
• so many calls on one birthday night ..
• so many laughs for one silly joke..
• so many tears for one little fight ..
• so many smiles for one victory ..
• friends the best part in life..
• especially MY FRIENDS.
• (navy , hams, div,lavu,chaitu, pinky,  sus ,chandu, sai , josh, zullu , appala )...... My dearest friends  from school and college!!!! may long live you guys!!!

ROBO (a must watch movie)

Robo is the biggest budget movie ever made in history of indian cinema . It is a science friction been dubbed in three languages tamil , telugu and hindi . It stars india's biggest superstar rajinikanth and beautiful actress of the indian films Aishwarya Rai . Music was given by oscar winner A.R.rahman ..

plots revolves like this...
 professor vaseegaran(Rajini) creates a human android robot which resembles him . He names it chitti . sana (Aishwarya)  is professor  vasi's girl friend.  chitti knows all skills of defense , languages of world and he is very intelligent.. Vaseegaran prepares Chitti for an evaluation by the Artificial Intelligence Research and Development Institute (AIRD) ,which is headed by Dr. Bohra (vasi's professor) , he wanted to gift it to indian army ....Through following situations and incidents vasi understands that chitti need to understand human  psyche, behaviour and emotions, and succeeds in doing so by installing a new hormone simulation module into the robot. But problem comes through when chitti falls for sana and Bohra's thoughts to use chitti in bad ways.. finally a situation araises  when vasi destructs chitti and chitti being remade as destructor by Bohra , which makes chitti kill Bohra , kidnap sana and built up his own army which becomes a big danger to humans... finally it becomes a war between the creator and the creation .. finally things come under control after great affords by vasi .

In a final court hearing, the judge rules Capital punishment for Vaseegaran for the number of human tolls caused by the robot army. Chitti, explaining to the court that the law allows him to be treated as a valid evidence, explains that it was Dr. Bohra who caused Chitti's deviant behaviour. He shows the court, using his eyes as 3D projectors, the video footage of Dr. Bohra installing the red chip inside him. The court decides to drop all charges against Vaseegaran, while concluding that Chitti should be dismantled in order to avoid further mishaps of the same kind in future. The court also observes that a robot as advanced as Chitti is "unnecessary for contemporary human life".

Back at the lab, in the presence of government and police officials, an emotional Vaseegaran tells Chitti to dismantle itself. While taking off its parts one by one, Chitti apologizes to Sana and Vaseegaran for the problems it caused.

20 years later, in 2030, students in a science museum are escorted by a guide towards a showcase that has Chitti's body parts arranged. The guide tells the students that Chitti was the most advanced humanoid robot that was created twenty years ago and that it was dismantled due to "certain reasons". A curious girl  asks why, to which Chitti's head responds saying, "I started to think". As the guide says bye to Chitti and takes them to another exhibit, the surprised student keeps looking back at Chitti in surprise . 

Through out the movie we don't get bored even a single second ..  Rajini sir at his 60s does a perfect job acting duel role..Robo stands with a perfect theme that  what a will happen if robots start thinking!!!!! 

OPPOSITE SIDE OF ME!!!

I always think does others have a opposite side of life like me ???  now its always like that of  me being a confused girl from childhood..  It was like last year when my english sir (from school) called me and asked me to come to my school and to give lecture to all these new comers how to study and prepare time table , after his call i thought of my self "yaa it is great if any one ask you something like that   but , am i that great that i could give a lecture ??? no way i'm just in college and i'm not at all great then why , no i should not do this."  and thats it the very next moment i called one of my school friend and told that they want to see her in school.. now why did i do it , i just donno....

I was in fifth i guess i won first in a debate (how perfect our governing system is) conducted by our school .. At time awards were being given in annual day and i was in school helping team for our class drama . My parents came to see me take the prize from our district collector there and then there was announcement  of prize winners in debate !!! 3rd and 2nd were given off and then they announced my name , twice and thrice , i was in back stage my mind just thought 1 thing " sudhi you were really bad in that debate donno how they are giving it to you , don't go , don't go" thats it i went back and i pretended as if i was busy in arrangements and my school supervisor caught me she told my that every 1 are waiting for me and took me , there were these steps which connect the back stage and main stage , and my class  teacher and supervisor pushed me into main stage ,opff i took the prize and rushed into backstage hard luck i was again called back to take my photo .. (yuck!!)
Its 2002 likely when India was playing for world cup (cricket )  . We had it shown in our local district cabal and there were local advertisements of schools and colleges and my hard luck at that year i was in science fare  of our school and that video used to be showed in advertisement of our school and my clip used to stay for 7sec . Everday when i used to go to school some unknow used to come any say " hey i saw you on that advertisement ". and i used to think " hard luck , agrr why i'm in this school , i wish i was neverbeen shown " i used to search a better way to escape from it..
My first article "sharks the deep see kings "(against killing of sharks)  was published in our school's magazine (intellect) , it was one of the finest of that year (every one said so ) but i never published any other article thinking that i'm a bad writer ..
once my biology teacher in high school took my sketch book ( i was secretly sketching in between class) i got scared . but he saw all  my sketches and asked " hey have you found one interesting thing  in these? There is a girl in all these sketches once she is in deserts, once in forest , once she is sweeping  , once she is picking flower, feeding birds .. but in every action she is thinking something " lolzzz i still remember it..
yaa i know i think alot and my thoughts are only cause of my destruction (they always try to conquer me) ..

but still i can't dwell it..

                                                              one of my sketch from highschool

at this moment of life i know what i chose was wrong

i know what i wanted to do

i know i could have done miracles 

but why i did silly sacrifices for other 

a sacrifice which made me forget myself

there is still time but i have no strength to fight 

life is long and  i know i can do it someday, some time!!! 

My life is a big question mark for me 

but i know i'll understand about it oneday

all it takes is that i have to control my opposite side!!